After 9:30pm, usually my head went dead so I will start watching some TV. Sex scandal of Former governor of New York State brought prostitution onto the front pages of all news and entertainment channels.

It seems that prostitutes put so much danger in married lives. It seems that those mostly uneducated women can easily take away things that other women tried their whole life to build up, public status, wealth and feeling of being loved. Why are they so powerful? Are they happy? Most mistresses are treated badly after a while and went through dramas and get nothing, yet prostitutes (escorts) are making amount of money that they can't count and seemed to be liked so much.

Again, are they supposed to be the happiest class of people?

I watched this show 20/20. Most interviewed whores were in tears. They had nobody to turn to. They are lonely and not in good shape at all. They got paid for 20 dollars each time. 20 dollars! Most of them are drug addicts too. Let alone the previlige to associate sex with love. Only one of them seemed to be so proud of what she is doing and the host said she had a hard time to believe her.

I think prostitution is like Motel. Some women are Marriot. The fact going to "Motel" only means they are desperate and have very bad taste. Married women are like Marriot, they can afford more pride in themselves which means a lot to a person's quality of life.

I never liked the Movie "Pretty Woman"! What does it want to tell the public? It is okay to be prostitute. It is not okay to not look pretty? It only misled young dumb girls and helped them to justify their stupidity and encouraged them to hold on to the dreams that won't happen.

We all have the experience of getting out of bed in the morning feeling tired. So we go for Mr. Coffee for help. We understand overall, it adds load to our heart, the ultimate engine of our body. But we are still doing it.

We all have experience to feeling sad, agitated for things that don't really matter.

We all experienced lacking of energy and hope.

We take our cars for maintenance over the weekend in an expectation that our cars can run smoothly for a long time. What about ourselves?

A week after my parents left, I gradually get back to my own rythem--waking up early in the morning. Instead of waiting for everyone else to get up doing absolutely nothing in bed, I decided to hit the Gym!

I watched the news, ran on a treadmill and stretched my body. I am so ready to start my journey of the rest of the day. Yeah, I am in control of my own life.

"Why does dog wag the tail, not the tail wags the dog? Because the dog is smarter. "

This is the teaser of the movie "Don't wag the dog." The story starts with release of the sex scandal of the president. The president is in China and there're 11 days before the election.

Mr. Fix-it came to the White house and claimed a war. With who? For what? "I am working on it. " were  his answers. He went to Hollywood for a rescue for politics situation, sounds weird?

This is the movie I would strongly recommend. Politics is not some rock science for people to talk about and show their intelligence, politics is drama made by power. Yes, Drama, like fight among kids. It is all about power, money and sex.

Why do men (some women) boast?

Isn't it odd that some people just have it all? Lots of money, lots of time in hand, lots of love,  easy life, enough luck. Isn't it even odder that they never reach the bills on the lunch table even if their money, according to them, is always in millions?

What boasting make others feel? I don't know about others. I can smell boasting most of the time. Or I would feel life is so not fair.

What boasting people get from boasting? It is as important to be remembered as a respectful person. Boasting people get attention in the beginning and soon enough, their lies are going to be recognized and they are going to be remembered as disgusting.

So why do men (some women) boast? Insecure of themselves. Shallow, inconsiderate, wanting to put others down.

Come on, stop boasting already.

This is by far my favorite video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BxckAMaTDc
 
What is stress? Where does it come from? Generally speaking, stress is unmatchable expectation and results. Stress is from out of control, Stress is from not knowing what to do.

I have been studying and working hard. Schools and jobs are very responsive, ( not responsible). In another word, generally speaking, the more you do, the more you get.

Most stress, in my opinion, comes from people. People in your way, people who treat you worse when you treat them with all your heart...or helpless or loneliness especially when you are surrounded by people, but nobody seems to care.

Most people-related stress is due to things we don't understand.

My parents came and left and I miss them sooner than I expected.

My parents came for a visit. They can't drive a car, they can't speak the language. They talked a lot. They played a lot too. (Of course!) Spending as much time as I can means somewhat cut-off from my normal life, my studying, my sports and my other stuffs. When they are here, the home was crowded and very noisy.

For one moment after they were gone, I felt relieved. I finally got to go back to my own bed. I finally got to count how much I spent...Guess what? I miss them!! I miss them very much.

My Dad is so sweet and quiet. His love is so unconditional. My mom is so genuine, everything about her, her ambition, her pride and even her anger, is so real. She leaves them out there without any decoration.

Gee! Deep in my heart, I am so much like my Mom. I want to relieve every thought on my mind freely. Yeah, I want to. Yet, I am in America. Distance between people's heart is far, far, far. I am lucky enough to have my circle of friends. Now a couple of them are going to have kids, which means less time together and less common ground.

I wish my parents lead a happy life somewhere close to us, like when I was in Chengdu, they were so close. I go home whenever I want to.

See, I was right. You lose something to gain something. There is a price to be where we want to be. I hope it is not overly-priced.

I miss my parents.

Is the reality too harsh on Gov. Spitzer?

I didn't know this man. Many people didn't know him for his accomplishments. Many people didn''t know him when he busted corruption in big corporations, many people don't know him when he busted escort businesses.

Now everyone knows him. Everyone knows him as a betrayer. Many men critics came to screen to comment on his mis-deamer. But the thing is, how about them? How many people you know of that never stray? and not doing so?

Not that we should justify this. In my opinion, the shame he deserves more is to be double-faced, hypocritcs. If you are not against escort business, don't raise your flags.

We do suffer hypocritics in this country. It is part of the culture. People say what they are supposed to say. That leaves them unbearably lonely.

For those who wrap up tightly, ask yourself a question, what the hell are you? Really?

This blog is to respond to a friend's blog titled aging.

She told me both in person before that one of her elder guy friend reminded her that if she didn't treat her husband well, her husband may ditch her one day after succeeding. There is truth to it.

I remember when I was fifteen,  I didn't want to grow up anymore. I enjoyed who I was. Then when I was 23, when I was treated like princess by my friends, I feared to be 28 at which age, life can only be work and go home cooking... then when I get to 28, I feel it was my prime time...

The thing is about wisdom and charm. When we were young, we were so naive and powerless. We were followers of other people. We had no money, no wisdom. We had nothing but youth; Yet, aging brings wisdom. Conversations become more meaningful, activities become more wonderful (not only dinning and wandering in Mall.., sitting around gossiping about boy next door who is nothing but a beautiful body.

Then we figured out who we are and what kind of life we want to lead and we have some sort of resources to choose too.

Now, I am heading to 40s. Now we are talking about challenge and choices again.

Don't get me wrong. I love my friends. I accept them for who they are as a package. Differences don't really bother me but it doesn't mean I don't notice them.

It is not too a bad trait, is it?

A friend of mine is a great person with confidence. He is confident with all the judgements and he makes firm judgements on everything. He has a weight problem, I don't, nor my husband.

One day he gave us a strong speech on how to lose weight. How to manage diet in order not to gain weight. He expressed great confidence as if he was teaching us a lesson. Of course, he treated us as great freinds so he didn't tune his speech to his audience. In other word, he is thinking out loud.

It is interesting for me to notice. I sometimes express uncertainty to my audience. Many people can handle saying nothing or saying things to the opposite when they actually are not sure. They assure themselves and others at the same time of things they are not really sure. ( I hope this makes sense), I can't.

When it comes to career security, I am not sure. I try to tie myself up to hope but I am in the dark, I have to admit. In another word, I am not sure.

Sometimes, I can't help it. I say it out loud. I have a feeling I scare people away with my worries. Gee, I have worries.  I will pay attention to limit my expression from expressing worries to only showing I am not sure.

Often heard people appraised those who seem to have made so much money with admiration, as if they were superhero. Especially among Chinese, for some reason, people's eyes are lit up as if they were talking about themselves. Of course, people find their way to boast how much they have made as well.

Fairly said, it is not that all of those people are shallow. Nay. It is that people ignore talents, spirit, hard-work and everything else, but see money as only indication of example. What if the person makes money from selling drugs? Should we admire them? What if the person robbed bank? What is the person cheated on deals? What lesson can we really learn there.

Honestly, I am not ones who are not working and who are not making beyond-okay money, but somehow I feel unworthy among those comparisons.

I can't change people but I can choose to stay away from all those talks. I have been trying hard and I am still trying hard and do all I can, I think that should be enough.


I am not going to deny anyone who admire people as long as they have money. but I wish they could see beyond that and again, I will walk away from conversation of that kind.

Lately I heard so many good news about my friends. All of them seem to have it all and don't seem to try hard at all. I should be happy for them, and I do. but I somehow feel God is kind of unfair to me. Why do I have to try that hard? and my friends seem to make such easy money? Am I counting my losses?

Lately I heard so many good news about my friends. All of them seem to have it all and don't seem to try hard at all. I should be happy for them, and I do. but I somehow feel God is kind of unfair to me. Why do I have to try that hard? and my friends seem to make such easy money? Am I counting my losses?